Dream with me?

Long time no…. write? 9 de Janeiro de 2010

Filed under: Catching up (daylife),ramblings,University — blackseyr @ 14:59

He’ya all!

How’ve you been?

I know I’ve been quite abscent… But Univ is quite killing me at the time…. *lucky thing is that I’m only having one exam!! YAY!*

*Ahem..*

Lots of things have happened, good ones, excellent ones, neither good or bad ones, bad ones… and HORRIBLE ones… Yeah… exciting isn’t it? Well, not to me… My heart isn’t handling this load of excitment that well (psycologically I mean…). I would be really glad if I could have some time of peace… like… 6 months would be nice… ^^;

I have loads of Univ works to do until next friday, and some projects to finish up until next monday, AND there are more projects coming up to finish ‘til the end of this 1st Semester…

At first I thought I was actually enjoying being there… but…. now I realize that I’m actually HATING it… I’m located in a small village, with mostly old people, that aren’t nice at all (specially the employers that SHOULD be nice… they’re the worst ones…)… My housemates are childish, spoiled and stuborn…. My degree colleges are not bad, but I don’t feel very close to them… Something is holding me back to not trust them at all… (dunno why though… but I trust my guts…)

I’m just hoping that the next semester will be better… at least the classes that I’m supposed to have seem a lot better and way more interesting than the ones I’ve been having so far…

I’m hating Programming and Game Math with all my strenghts…. T___T (but I’ve always hated math, and I never liked to work with MDOS… which can explain a lot…)

My drawing classes SUCK as hell… and I seem to be the last art student in my class (all others came from technological, scientific or multimedia high school courses….), and one of the few remaining girls… (and judging from what I’m seeing so far… It’ll end being just me and another girl like me…).

My hands FREEZE up in classes, and I just can’t write/draw… and in the outdoors I tend to forget I have a butt (because it’s so FREAKIN’ COLD that I can’t feel my bottom…), my nose seems like it’s going to break if I touch it without being careful…no matter how many layer of socks I wear, my feet seems to be deep into an ice cube pool… (same goes to my hands, even though I always wear 2 pairs of gloves.)

And summer is going to be the complete oposite… like… now it’s -4 ºC during the day (and it can go to -11 to -15 ºC during the night), but in the summer, it tends to go to really high temperatures during safe hours in the day (meaning from 15h to 19h-20h), going from 35 ºC to 45Cº… and not cooling down that much at night (sometimes it only cools down 3 or 4 ºC….)

SO YEAH!!! I’m not that happy to be studying where I am… I feel like we are being used as “lab rats”, and that they seem to have actually never planned the course at all… it looks like they’re just going with the flow… They never teached in such patterns, and they mixed two distinct courses into just one (Programming Games and Designing Games), making it difficult to the ones that applied to this degree as designers (because we don’t get a thing in the programming part), and also to the ones that applied as programmers (because they can’t draw at all).. and instead of following the concept that other universities around the world applied successfully into this kind of degrees, they decided to make one of their own…

So the thing IS… I’m actually planning on talking to my degree director, as so to ask for help to apply as an erasmus/socrates student to either: England, Japan or USA (Atlanta Art Institute). Because I really don’t want to keep studying in here… It’s degrading and not stimulating at all…

Anyhow… That’s all the news for now…

I’ll try to keep in contatc.

Keep checking my youtube account —> Weura’s Channel for some videos of my drawings, and some drawing tutorials.

Take care!!!

Love you all! ❤

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