Dream with me?

So… 12 de Outubro de 2010

Filed under: personal work,sketches,WIPs,Works — blackseyr @ 01:13

I’ve been neglecting my sketch blog for the longest time I ever neglected any other web place I have… ^^;
I’m going to start doing daily sketches to post here more often.
And also share some pictures that I’ll take of my daily life.
Hopefully you’ll like it. ^^

So here’s one sketch. 🙂

 

Long time no…. write? 9 de Janeiro de 2010

Filed under: Catching up (daylife),ramblings,University — blackseyr @ 14:59

He’ya all!

How’ve you been?

I know I’ve been quite abscent… But Univ is quite killing me at the time…. *lucky thing is that I’m only having one exam!! YAY!*

*Ahem..*

Lots of things have happened, good ones, excellent ones, neither good or bad ones, bad ones… and HORRIBLE ones… Yeah… exciting isn’t it? Well, not to me… My heart isn’t handling this load of excitment that well (psycologically I mean…). I would be really glad if I could have some time of peace… like… 6 months would be nice… ^^;

I have loads of Univ works to do until next friday, and some projects to finish up until next monday, AND there are more projects coming up to finish ‘til the end of this 1st Semester…

At first I thought I was actually enjoying being there… but…. now I realize that I’m actually HATING it… I’m located in a small village, with mostly old people, that aren’t nice at all (specially the employers that SHOULD be nice… they’re the worst ones…)… My housemates are childish, spoiled and stuborn…. My degree colleges are not bad, but I don’t feel very close to them… Something is holding me back to not trust them at all… (dunno why though… but I trust my guts…)

I’m just hoping that the next semester will be better… at least the classes that I’m supposed to have seem a lot better and way more interesting than the ones I’ve been having so far…

I’m hating Programming and Game Math with all my strenghts…. T___T (but I’ve always hated math, and I never liked to work with MDOS… which can explain a lot…)

My drawing classes SUCK as hell… and I seem to be the last art student in my class (all others came from technological, scientific or multimedia high school courses….), and one of the few remaining girls… (and judging from what I’m seeing so far… It’ll end being just me and another girl like me…).

My hands FREEZE up in classes, and I just can’t write/draw… and in the outdoors I tend to forget I have a butt (because it’s so FREAKIN’ COLD that I can’t feel my bottom…), my nose seems like it’s going to break if I touch it without being careful…no matter how many layer of socks I wear, my feet seems to be deep into an ice cube pool… (same goes to my hands, even though I always wear 2 pairs of gloves.)

And summer is going to be the complete oposite… like… now it’s -4 ºC during the day (and it can go to -11 to -15 ºC during the night), but in the summer, it tends to go to really high temperatures during safe hours in the day (meaning from 15h to 19h-20h), going from 35 ºC to 45Cº… and not cooling down that much at night (sometimes it only cools down 3 or 4 ºC….)

SO YEAH!!! I’m not that happy to be studying where I am… I feel like we are being used as “lab rats”, and that they seem to have actually never planned the course at all… it looks like they’re just going with the flow… They never teached in such patterns, and they mixed two distinct courses into just one (Programming Games and Designing Games), making it difficult to the ones that applied to this degree as designers (because we don’t get a thing in the programming part), and also to the ones that applied as programmers (because they can’t draw at all).. and instead of following the concept that other universities around the world applied successfully into this kind of degrees, they decided to make one of their own…

So the thing IS… I’m actually planning on talking to my degree director, as so to ask for help to apply as an erasmus/socrates student to either: England, Japan or USA (Atlanta Art Institute). Because I really don’t want to keep studying in here… It’s degrading and not stimulating at all…

Anyhow… That’s all the news for now…

I’ll try to keep in contatc.

Keep checking my youtube account —> Weura’s Channel for some videos of my drawings, and some drawing tutorials.

Take care!!!

Love you all! ❤

 

Back to ground zero 6 de Agosto de 2009

Filed under: Dreams — blackseyr @ 18:00

So my mom just decided that maybe I was right to want to go study abroad in the USA. She wasn’t very kin into letting me go all alone to the US.

But it seems that when she was at her Hair Saloon, one of the girls thee said that I shouldn’t be taking this new course from Mirandela, because although the Bacherlor here may value a lot, it won’t have ANY outside this country. It won’t even be recognized. So she gt al scared and paniqued. The girl then said that I could try getting a scholarship to Macau… the thing is…. if my mom was afraid of the cultural diferences between here and the US, she should be even more considering Macau… Like… let’s face it, I LOVE asian countries and culture, but it would be a LOT harder to go there to study, than going the the US…

I’ve searched the possibilities of schools that the Art Institute has..Well, there’s at least one Art Institute College per state. I was looking at Chicago Illinois, but it was too far away from the only person that I know that lives there. So I searched for the Atlanta Art Institute College, and if I actually go study in te US thi year, I’ll probably go there.

For now these are only ideas, although my mom sems to be more serious about this option… she want’s to know the fees (which are REALLY high….), what financial support can I have and how do I apply to those, and when should I apply to the entrance in that College.

So yeah, now I’m getting to be happy. It’s going to be more difficult than if I stayed here, obviously, but even so, I know that it will be better and at least it can guarantee me some aknowledgment from the companies that I can try to apply for later.
I only need an averag C grade to apply, the rest will b checked on my interview there.

I guess the worst part is applyig for the financial aid, finding the money to go there, and get all the documents needed… The rest I guess it’ll be a piece of cake. 😀

Wish me luck guys!

 

Unemployed again… 2 de Agosto de 2009

Filed under: ramblings — blackseyr @ 21:45

Yeah. it sucks when you just get the job of your life, and someone just makes it all to get you fired… it happened to me… T___T

Back to ground zero… :s

Anyhow… my computer is dying *literally*, and I hope I can at least sell some works out to gather money to buy a new one. Although things aren’t going that well in what comes to sell my works… T___T

I need money… and I need a new computer…. *cries*

Meanwhile…….. I’m still waiting for my lazy mother to decide if we are going this week or the next….or right in the last day as it is usual in her, to go to the university in Mirandela, to take care of my appliance to the course…
And I’m kind of getting impatiente here… She was all excited about me going to this new course, and now she’s all around that it might not be so good, and that I won’t get a job in that area here in Portugal (she still believes that I wanna keep living in here…. poor thing…), and that I shouldn’t get too confident about it… like… I know I must be realistic… but hell!!! No way I’m gonna be THAT pessimistic!!!
She hasn’t even told my father about the POSSIBILITY… gosh!!! She so gets onto my nerves!!! >____<
I believe that she simply can’t accept the idea of me going away from home at all… even if it is inside of this doomed country.

Well… meanwhile I’m sticking with this old stupid computer, while my mom refuses to borrow me hers…

Take care everyone!

 

Keeps getting better! 28 de Julho de 2009

Filed under: Realizations — blackseyr @ 12:30

Indeed it is!

A friend of mine found out that the course I wanted to take in IL Chicago is going to open this year!

Just exactly what I wanted I guess! At least from the info I saw they’re teaching what I want to learn. 😀

Thank you pal!

It’s not too expeensive, but still I’ll call for help from the state, ‘cuz the most expensive part of my course is not the course itself, but the resourses, books and medias (materials – digital and traditional). ^^;
The best part about it is that it’s in the north of my country…meaning: beautiful monuments, SNOW, patrimomy, the most beautiful sighs in all of Portugal, and HEY! It’s in the oldest city of Portugal: Bragança!

I never thought that I could actually be excited about staying in Portugal to study, but I guess that I am because my mom is also trying to get employed near there, and also because that way it’ll be easier for me to adapt, and later if I want I can make a post-graduation outside in other country. 😀
No, really, I guess now I’m really feeling relieved. And I’m probably going to enter this year. I still have to contact the colege and go to my high school get some info that I need, and maybe still in this week I’ll still go to Bragança to apply to the course.
The only thing that doesn’t make me so happy about staying is… the hard Praxis… T___T
Really, I’m shit scared of what I might get….

My mom is all excited over this new event *she didn’t want me to leave to a foreign country alone and so soon*. When she heard about the she went from a blank face to a huge smile (that nearly killed me from laughter), and said: You goota take that chance! And right tomorrow we’ll call them, go to your school to get your grades, and then still in this week we’ll go to Mirandela (Bragança) for you to apply! *and she kept going* You’ll love that place!!! It snows in the winter! The cold is not as bad as in here, although i can go to negative temperatures it is not a wet cold like ours! And you’ll love people in there!!!

I couldn’t help but laugh at her excitment all over this even. It was funny, because it almost seemed as if she was the one who was going to apply to that college and not me. XD

I’ll try to keep on track with the news!!! *specially if they keep on being this good!*

 

Some news 27 de Julho de 2009

Filed under: Realizations,To do's list — blackseyr @ 14:48

Been absent for a while now….

Gomen ne…. m(._.)m

Anyhow…

I just got a job, althout it can be frustrating and somewhat tiring to promote a trade mark of beauty care, at least I get paided even if I don’t sell anything at all, since I don’t have to sell, if I do, great, if I don’t, it’s ok. It’s not my job to sell at all.

Anyhow… I haven’t been drawing at all in these days… I’ve been busy with intervews and searching for jobs and so on…so I’ve been neglecting my art for some time now…

My PC is freaking out lately, so I probably won’t be doing anything in Photoshop until I get a new one, or at least get to borrow one from someone to keep on working…

I will be sending *finally* those commissions that should have been sent in February or something… *gomen ne*

Into some other news… A friend of mine convinced me to participate in the portuguese version of American Idol, *Ídolos*. So yeah… after years without singing at all, I’ll be participaing in a show that requires good skills, carisma, and some GUTS! XD *I’m gonna die for sure*

I’ll try to keep the pace up with the news!

 

Um momento… 12 de Junho de 2009

Filed under: Dreams — blackseyr @ 16:08
Foto por Gabriel Garcia Marques

Foto por Gabriel Garcia Marques

AMIZADE E AMOR DEFINIDOS
NUMA SIMPLES FOTO…….

‘Aprendi que um homem só tem o direito de olhar um outro de cima para baixo para ajudá-lo a levantar-se’.

(Gabriel Garcia Marques).

Apenas um momento no qual vale a pena repensar as nossas acções do dia-a-dia… 🙂